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Restless

Mon, 02 Feb 2009 06:30:46 GMT

She's Why I'm Restless
Steve Lovell

I'm still awake on this old bed
Beer buzz still ringing in my head
Just another night alone
Laying curled up by the telephone
Watched every late night show again
Haven't missed a single one since then
Since the night I can't seem to forget
When I left the house as she still slept

She's why I'm restless
Why I can't sleep at all
My head is filled with these thoughts
Of my mistake in being gone
If I called her tonight
And she said baby come back home
I'd drive right on over
at 2 in the morning
And I'd tell her that she's the only one

I know I can't bother her now
The sun'll be up in just a few hours
Maybe I'll miss work again
Just to wish that I'd gone in
And if I lay here all day long
Listen to all the same old songs
It'll be just another day
It seems they've all become the same

She's why I'm restless
Why I can't sleep at all
My head is filled with these thoughts
Of my mistake in being gone
If I called her tonight
And she said baby come back home
I'd drive right on over
at 2 in the morning
And I'd tell her that she's the only one

If I called her tonight
And she said baby come back home
I'd drive right on over
at 2 in the morning
And I'd tell her that she's the only one

In A New York Minute...

Sun, 01 Feb 2009 16:28:06 GMT

In a New York minute, everything can change. Thanks, Don Henley. It's amazing how fast things do change, especially when you're not expecting it. You're just cruising along, thinking everything is perfect, and then your entire scope of reality is gone. I watched the woman I was madly in love with lose her entire world as the one person she was truly close to dwindle away to nothing. I remember the call, the driving a hundred miles an hour trying to get to her, and the way it crushed my heart when I finally got to her and she couldn't even speak. I remember the way her father turned his back on her countless times and she still took care of him. She had to grow up within a matter of weeks, way before she should have. "Derevaun Seraun," I use it everywhere. It's Gaelic for "The end of pleasure is pain." I stole it out of a James Joyce novel. It's starting to make more sense to me now. Our life is full of simple pleasures, but one thing can take them away and all we're left with is crushing pain. I don't know how she still lives the life of a normal person after what she had to go through. She keeps telling me it's all because of me, but God knows I've had my share of things that she shouldn't have had to deal with. If 3 years has taught me anything, it's that a woman is a strong entity.

Winter

Fri, 30 Jan 2009 03:40:42 GMT

So it's cold out. Another winter passing, the ice and snow like a blanket, covering everything it can reach. We all take refuge in whatever we can find for warmth; a blanket, a fire, the tender embrace of a loved one. For some it's simpler than that. A familiar book, or a song of someone else's winter wonderland. And the road we all travel in this cold season is covered by the same ice and snow that we all hold so dear with memories of snowmen and angels in the blanketed grass. Beneath the snow are the same rocks that we trip on every day throughout the rest of the year, but what is it that makes the freezing months warmer, happier than some other times of the year? Perhaps the snow that covers these stones are the thoughts of a new lover found in the new year, or spending time with family as you're frozen in your house through the day, afraid to leave the warmth for the treacherous cold outside. Perhaps the snow is just a reminder that we all have stones in our path, but sometimes there is a medium that allows us to travel without having to notice them.

Update of sorts...

Wed, 28 Jan 2009 02:07:24 GMT

Hmm...so this thing is working again, eh? Much has changed. I'm working in auto parts, have been since November 2007, living with my grandparents, listening to new music, playing lead guitar in two bands, attending college as a music major, and just enjoying life :)

Everything I Need

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 14:00:33 GMT

So...nothing in awhile, I know. I've been busy like crazy. On my third week of a new job, preparing for college, still loving Amanda to death, writing music, and just enjoying everything I'm given each day. I'm selling my SG...something I thought would never happen. But I'm selling it in order to buy a Fender TC-90 Thinline guitar. Basically a hollow-body, double-cutaway Telecaster body with Seymour Duncan SP90 pickups, the same Tune-o-Matic bridge that my SG has, a set neck, and a really, really awesome black cherry burst color with smoked chrome hardware. I honestly can't wait. It will sound better for country and blues than my SG, which incidentally is what I play more. I need an amp, too. We'll see what happens. I'm just enjoying my day off. Last weekend I picked up Brad Paisley's Time Well Wasted album, and it is truly kick ass. Check it out! Actually I'm off to pick up my paycheck! []Deace Out!

-DarthArcanus

As The Rain Falls

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 02:37:35 GMT

Probably my favorite song i've written, which actually turned out really well on the recording, As The Rain Falls

The rain falls outside our door
As we watch the waves crash into the shore
I'm holding you close, feeling you breathe
We stare out the window, watching the sea
Then I look into your eyes
And reach down for a kiss
But the thunder crashes loud
And wakes me from my dreamy bliss

As the rain falls down on this empty bed
I slowly remember all those mean things I said
All of our memories just running through my head
As the rain falls down

I walk down the hall, stumbling around
The walls are covered with our old pictures I found
Ever since you left, I don't know who I am
I'll find myself here, all alone again

As the rain falls down on this empty bed
I slowly remember all those mean things I said
All of our memories just running through my head
As the rain falls down

All of our memories running through my head
As the rain falls down

I don't want to go back to school tomorrow. :(

Life Ain't Always Beautiful

Fri, 24 Mar 2006 16:35:13 GMT

Thanks to his latest video, I think Gary Allan may have taken my top spot for favorite country artist. Here's the lyrics to Life Ain't Always Beautiful

Life Ain't Always Beautiful
Life ain't always beautiful
Sometimes it's just plain hard
Life can knock you down
It can break your heart

Life ain't always beautiful
You think you're on your way
And it's just a dead end road
At the end of the day

But the struggles make you stronger
And the changes make you wise
And happiness has it's own way
Of taking it's own sweet time

Chorus:
No, life ain't always beautiful
Tears will fall sometimes
Life ain't always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride

Life ain't always beautiful
Some days I miss your smile
I get tired of walking
All these lonely miles

And wish for just one minute
That I could see your pretty face
Guess, I can dream
But life don't work that way

But the struggles make me stronger
And the changes make me wise
And happiness has it's own way
Of taking it's sweet time

No, life ain't always beautiful
But I know I'll be fine
Life ain't always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride

What a beautiful ride

You know, I don't know if he writes his own stuff, but I wouldn't be surprised, because that middle part of the song seems like he wrote it about his wife, who committed suicide before he released his latest album, Tough All Over and another one of his songs, Best I Ever Had from that album seems like it would be about her too but I don't know. Today I'm going up to school to finish recording some stuff, it should prove to be fun.

Bring It On Home To Me

Tue, 14 Mar 2006 02:44:11 GMT

Well, what's new? I wrote two new songs today because there was nothing better to do. I'll post them later, right now all my crap is at school. I did learn to play a new song though, Bring It On Home by Little Big Town. Now that I have a capo for my guitar I can play nearly anything. And I finally got a haircut over the weekend. Freakin' awesome. And yesterday I didn't do anything but spend the afternoon with Amanda. We got bored and it was hot so we drove to the QuikTrip in Glenpool (which is a 30 minute drag under my driving) and then we walked the track at Reed Park. Oh, and I played Frisbee Golf that morning with my little brother. That's really the extent of my weekend, other than I spent Saturday afternoon fixing my car and then spent Saturday night with Allen, Amanda, and Katina. Today was just another uneventful day at school. I guess I will post later. Peace!!

-DarthArcanus

I'm Right Where I Need To Be

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 19:51:31 GMT

Hey guys, how's it going? Yesterday I played Forest Ridge to get ready for our tourney on Wednesday. Then I have to play in a match Thursday afternoon. But I get out of 6th hour for it. I need to type up my notes from yesterday so I can print them out and give them to Jordan and Travis. And John I think. Last night I spent the night over at Allen's watching him play Half-Life 2. Yeah, pretty much a waste of time of some sort. So far today I haven't done anything. Friday night was Band Court Coronation. Then we went out to dinner at Johnny Carino's. It was okay. The only person who commented that I looked good was Ashley Matlock's mom. And Amanda, of course, but isn't that her job? Pretty much. The rest of the week was rather uneventful. Jason Aldean was playing in Miami Friday night, and if I didn't have that damn coronation to go to I would've driven out there to see him. Nothing I could do, however. I was in it. It went a lot quicker than I had imagined, though. *Yawn* I need to go clean out my car. See you guys later.

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 02:29:43 GMT

Nothing new, I guess. Just been spending a lot of time with my guitar, like always. I got a 2 rating at Solo & Ensemble, had the piece been memorized I would've made a 1 and moved on to State. Oh well, now all I have to get ready for is college auditions. And our first golf tournament next Wednesday. And the regular season starting the day after. And I'm supposed to be off my script for Act 1 by tomorrow. Too much to do. I'm exhausted, I just wanted a little update. The Circus went well, by the way. Enjoy yourselves!